Someone's blog reminded me of someone.

I started to think about X last night.

I started to recall what happened in Pre-U and Taylor's first 4 semester.

Guess i want to tell what happened here now.

I met X when i was really young， 7 years back. We were just friends nothing much that time. I did not even know i'd feelings on X till one day.. 3.45pm. This particular date particular time. We were walking in a mall and out of sudden X hugged me. A mall. I couldn't recall back how many strangers wer staring at X hugging me and said :"Happy Birthday." It just happened. I know that's the right one. I knew.

August.

Two years later. One day.

X called asking me not to call anymore without giving any reasons.

I begged.. I begged......... I begged from August till November that year.

It' been 5 years from that day we stopped.

Nobody knows how i survived this 5 years.

Nobody knows..

I cried more than anyoneelse.

All my friends around me.. They will not mention X in front of me.

Deep down, they know how suffer i was i am.

I skipped 60% classes in Pre-U.

I stopped seeing all friends whom are friends of X too.

Because they will remind me of X.

I acted crazy.. I talked shit....

I've a huge changed.

现在，我害怕度过三点四十五分。

我害怕走你拥抱我的那个地方。

我害怕遇见你。

我害怕任何人提起你。

我更害怕，你......消失。

I think... I shouldn't have let you let me go.

我们之间的承诺，你忘了吗？

就是那一句。

我等到现在。

就是这一句话。

怎么就这样放弃了呢？

怎么丢下我一个人呢?