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Hehehehehehe... Im home Babies. Alright. Previously, Miss F promised to answer all the curiousity questions. Here i am to fullfill you. Question Number 1. Mr P:"Why don't you find a job (part-time) since you are not going back right after exam?" Answer Number 1. Ms F:"Well, I think.. a job right? I will work.. either... construction job or no job. No part time. Yes i do earn. And yes, i waste my time. LOL. Might as well have lil fun before going back. Yooo... It's my opinion k? No offence. Please, it does't mean i do not need money or i'm rich. You are ferking childish if you think so. I live my live. Blow ah?" H1N1 My sister asked me to be careful because there are suspected cases in UK. She makes me feel warm. There's a UK Scientist said a shit scare the hell of me, he said approx 10o million of human would die if i spreads continuously. What the hell. No matter what where when how. I want to say out loud to my family and all my loved ones. "I love you." “突然发现站了好久，不知要道往哪走。” 张惠妹的歌。 一起身就听到这句。 所以，昨晚纵容自己睡了13个小时。 现在，精神！好得很！ 今天是我爱人的生日哦。 看来那家伙并没那心情去庆祝。 I hope swine flu will leave us really really soon. My Love in USA left to Japan. Or else.. I'll be very very worried. Many are/were quaranine in the states. God Bless us. Haih... From Bird Flu to SARS to Avian Flu, now? Swine Flu. Goddd.. Mercy us. Please. O BY THE WAY, Swine Flu does not mean it comes from SWINE PIG. According to DEAR. Siewling says - in red 1. 去7-11买condom - Superdrug or Boots 2. Try很名贵的红酒 3. 开枪 - Easy la. Buy a gun toy. 4. 跟angelinajolie拍照 - Wax ah? 5. 去miami纹身 6. 去流浪 7. 赛车 8. 和明星拍拖 - Doggie star? 9. 带弟弟去打耳洞 - What the hell! 想要经验的经验 (Part 1) 1. 去7-11买condom 2. Try很名贵的红酒 3. 开枪 4. 跟angelinajolie拍照 5. 去miami纹身 6. 去流浪 7. 赛车 8. 和明星拍拖 9. 带弟弟去打耳洞 Hahahahahaha. I mean it. 《丑行篇》 自私是该有的。我也自私。因为这是自我保护的方法。 在自私的同时，我相信如果理由充足的话，旁人是能够了解。 但是，如果在自私的同时，蓝伟大呢？ 那，我就不能接受了。 别把自己弄low。 真的很难看。 《黑人憎之英文篇》 请别滥用,nevermind, when you 真的很介意。 《算了吧之不稀罕篇》 如果朋友对你心淡了，心疼吗？ 我会很心疼。 如果朋友不稀罕你了，不必心疼。 想想自己的丑行吧。 Statements above do not mean anything if you are having positive attitude. Oo, and, i'm not qualify to judge anything. But, don't ever read my blog if you think i'm judging. Good Night. Just woke up. Flexible life style is what i'm having, you wouldn't believe how flexible i am. I can sleep, eat, and work whenever i want at any time like i can sleep at 4pm working at 2am maybe the 3am meal was my lunch. LOL. This kind of lifestyle is far more dangerous than you twist the day and night. For example i has dinner 1pm this afternoon god so bloody crazy. No matter what, it's just another 2 weeks left so as long as i can finish my work i can sacrifice my time. Was standing in front of the cash hole then stepped hard on the ground, the two fat ladies behind me were so shock but who care's? It's empty. You know? My account is empty. Hahahaha. GOD. Attention. My right shoulder is now very serious. I do not have time to see doc. Good. SFAQ 1. Are you tired? Hyper. 2. How long can it be last? Not long. 3. What you take everyday? Shit food. 4. Do you drink enough water? I don't remember there's such drink. 5. Do you shower? A must. 6. How many hours you sleep everyday? Less than 6 if i work that particular day. 7. What do you want to do the most after all these? Drunk for 3d3n. 8. Do you still remember that they are two VIP's birthday this week? I KNOW!! Stop reminding me of that. 9. What do you do when you are sleepy? Sing and sing and sing. 10. Can you make it? DEFINITELY. 11. Do you believe in yourself? Of course. 12. Have faith? Yes yes yes.. Who am i? 我是个很嚣张的人。 我是个很爱玩的家伙。 以上，不代表我不mature。 It's quite clear that i'm those acting playful infront of those i'm not familiar with orrrrrr i can sense that we are not clicked orrrrrr we're from different world. What is the meaning of Best Friends? 其实，有些事情是我和好友们都不大想要去思考的。 这个时候，我们就不会问太多。 不出声，不麻烦，默默支持就好了。 相信这是我们喜欢与感到舒服的环境。 我觉得舒服，同时我感受到那份支持。 我好喜欢。 来个例子吧。如果要问要关心，而必须会问到的问题如下：-（真的烦死人的问题) 1.功课还有很多要做吗？ 2.做得完吗？ 3.then怎么办？ 4.要我帮忙吗? Yup. These are fan kau si people 's questions. So, jia you lo My dearest dearest friend in Upper part UK and dont know which part of USA. Hahaha. Eh, we are darn far apart. The world population is estimated to be about 6.77 billion in April 2009. Quite many of us, right? I bring this up because i was thinking how many people are working as hard (like bull) like me? Of course i ain't saying not many and i am unique. I actually think i am not alone because i believe everyone are working hard to survive. I sometimes think.. matters are so right when they are so in time. You know what i mean? Back to the real life theories we learnt from school, one teacher once said:" Do not wait. Time will never be just right." So true. Never.. be just right. Was on the phone with another fella last night. We spoke about 'IF'. I don't like talking about IF, it's so dreamie and def not my style of living in a fake beautiful dream. Let's talk about 6 pounds. Hahaha. I'm not talking about Will Smith 7 pounds k? It means i have only 6 pounds left in my bank account, can you believe it? Shit. Someone just banked in 100 pds to me. DARN! I don't like owing money leh. Aiks. Will transfer back to her. Thanks anyway. I will work hard again. Fight Together!! 我真的累了。 Dear, thanks for you very encouraging sms. Shop like crazy women and club like hooker. Babe, I need some stuffs from Japan. Dad, I want my money. Sis, gimme some space. Friend, gay are meant to be with male. To my lecturers, Peter, your guidelines annoyed me so much and i want to kill you, you sucks. Mike, you're the best but can't believe that I'm having most of your works. Your 2 reports, 1 presentation, 2 exams. They are all yours. Duncan, you eat shit. After months, i still do not know what the ferk is Environmental Impact Assessment. Simon, you are okay. Martin, your report and exam ferking hard. How tired? 1. Every part of my body is aching. 2. My brain gone big and soft. 3. I slept few hours only. ( when i'm those needing 12 hours) 4. My tummy gone flat. 5. The floor full of white bits. 6. M right shoulder .. um, a bit weird. Aching if ever i move or i se my right hand to carry heavy bag. How fed up? 1. Peter's report took me 3 nights just to figure them out. 2. Kitchen smells like ferking shit. 3. I have no money. 4. If suicide is not a sin. I'll be resting in my nice starry coffin. 5. I took 3 coffees a day just to keep my brain clear, that's why it gone soft. 6. Dear's birthday is coming and.. I did nothing. How dead is dead? 1. If i cannot finish all of them by coming Wednesday. Happy Birthday to Dear and visit my funeral. 2. If i don't sleep properly. I'll def looking like zombie. Feed me flesh and blood. 3. If i don't eat properly. I'll be dried. Burried me. 4. If i don't drink in a week time. Send me to psychology unit. 5. If i don't pass this year. This time, i'll kill myself using 'rat poision' adding into Martell 24 and finish the whole bottle when listening to club songs while taking washing powder cig. 6. If... all these above happened to me. You know i mean it. I'll be in deep trouble. What would you do if a friend broke your trust? Well, I'm fine with it because many around me spread my news. Of course my news is not invaluable. My phone rang at 3pm when i was still dreaming. (I slept at 8am) My friend called, we spoke of someone. Lazy to tell, but.. she broke my trust. I wasn't angry. But.. i sien jor. Numb. By the way, feel free to ask me questions. I'll try my best to fullfill your curiousity. LMAO. 謝安琪 - 鍾無豔 “其實我怕你總誇獎高估我堅忍 其實更怕你只懂得欣賞我品行 無人及我用字絕重拾了你信心 無人問我可甘心演這偉大化身 其實我想暗中崩潰脆弱如戀人 誰在你兩臂中低得不需要身份” I like this lyrics. 其实我怕你总夸奖高估我坚忍，因为我不是。 在你们悲伤的那刻，我却.. 在你们开心的那刻，我却.. 其实我什么也不是。 我有不想听的故事。 不想喝的酒。 不想理的人。 不想睡得床。 不想拥有的身份。 我不想的，我真的不想。 我想要的，我却不能拥有。 但是，我明白.. 有遗憾，才是人生。 I'm Done lyrics PUSSYCATDOLL I wasn’t looking for this What is this? I don’t know You know I was doing just fine By myself On my own Tell me how to Stop this feeling I don’t wanna fall in love Just wanna have a little fun Then you came and swept me up And now I’m done, so done Fallen madly deeply I Surprised myself enough to find That what’s begun Is love And now I’m done, so done I’m done Thank you for not letting go When I said let me go Thank you for timing Thank your finding Thank you for not believing me Baby when I said... I am locked in my crepuscular room. I am tired of sitting down doing nothing. I am not a nabob but i have a wealthy heart. When i hear the sound of clarion it reminds me of the end of the day. When the end of the day comes to me, I'll be locked in a dark place. I'll be busy looking for place to sit and hope for miracles. I'll be nothing even i have 1 penny more. So, i better like like what i have. I miss my violin.. so much. LOOKING FORWARD! PUSSYCATDOOLLLL! Doll Domination 2.0. God, i love Painted Window and Hush Hush. 27 April! Yes. I called them SONGS. Real SONGS. 终究，人还是个个体。 我不需要任何‘什么都好’。 我还是一个人完整的度过了今天。 三千六百五十个日子。 时间真的过的很快。 有些人有些事，说来就来，说走就走。 既来之，则安之。 Fuck the milk. It makes me diarrhea. So sick whole damn day. Nearly fainted in city centre. Horrible. But i must drink. I must. EVERYDAY. I thought.. it's fine. As long as i don't touch the mother topic. Just right after my shower... I told myself i'll be fine. Just a day. Nothing much. What's gone what's gone. The past is passed. Unfortunately, it just came.. No worries. I'm not blaming. It's fine. Just.. hu......... very unlucky. I'm holding my tears. I'm strong. I'll be fine. I don't need anything. I don't right? Yes i don't. 人可以为了很多事而不开心。 可以因为体重增加。 可以因为不舒服。 很合理。 而我的理由，好像不再像个理由了.. 我只不过染上了一些坏习惯。 这代表我不爱我自己吗？ 听了亿万次。 在此，我想再说一次。我比任何人更爱我自己。 我比任何人都更明白人是个个体。 献给我一个好友。 我深深地明白这种日子的感受。 你那时在老美，并不好受吧。 我答应， 每逢属于您的这个日子。 我会安静默默地陪伴你。 19号。 我最大。 你讲！你讲啊！你讲！！有什么事是开心得过你好朋友要来了呢？？你讲啊！你讲！！！很很够够够力的开心！我什么也都不介意了！我能够去任何任何地方！只要能够‘一家’开心！今天的感觉是，我很幸福，因为我有两个家！其实都很温暖的家。无论将来发生什么事，两个家都是最好的避风港。同时，我也希望自己会是这两个家的members最温暖最安全的避风港。我想大声地说！放心，我永远都在陪伴你们。我的家人们。 There's one thing i'd like to buy as birthday present for my friend but you see.. I Loved it. Huuu.. Why must it so expensive? After hours and hours of considering. Buying two seems to be a good idea. Here's my idea. 1. I will buy for myself. Having a new toy is not over right? 2. I will buy two when i don't find something i wanna buy for my friend. 3. I will buy for myself and get another present if i find something more suitable as a birthday present for my friend. 4. I will buy it for my friend ONLY. Isn't it good? I thought i will work hard ended up using internet for hours. 《华语篇》 有些朋友你不会猜测到他们脑袋瓜但你却会知道他们的那刻的心情。 有些朋友你不需要猜测他们也会让你知道他们的一切。 有些朋友你自然的会知道他们想法与感受。 我身边都有这些朋友但我偏偏就不是以上三种。 我不奇怪，只是这就是我。 其实，我并不难明白，只要你用心，你就会知道。 经过苦苦的哀求，终于，讨到了那张照片。 好美丽的笑容。 想起你因为我而笑的笑容。 虽然过去了。 但我也想为这曾经活得漂亮。 还有两个月。 也会是漂亮的两个月。 以后的事， 以后再说。 昨天说起往事， 我竟然想念我妈打我的痛。 好想念哦。 还有两天， 10年了。 妈呀。度日如年啊。 放心，我快乐。 Confusing.. Confusing.... Ever felt like a s.p.? Invisible when the world doesn't need you anymore. Be. Transparent. I want it. There are many i wanted to do so much. Trust me.. Many of them. Many many millions billions of them. I just couldn't. Because i am weak. God.. Devil is challenging me. Get the fuck off. 对于一些我很重视的。 对于一些很重要的。 一切.. 都好像离我很远。 而我，很累赶前去。 一切随缘吧。 反正。 在我心里。 爱是不灭的。 时间会证明。 希望，跟我脑海里的不一样。 我真的真的真的真的真的很害怕。 捉的住的，捉不住了。 让我痛快地痛快地发泄，好吗？ 我太会隐藏我的感觉了。 今天提起亿万次的‘老’。 岁月真的不留人呀。 未来，是抽象，形容词。 since抽象.. 应该是看不见的吧？ 好像，走到了边缘。 看不见看不见看不见。 本是同根生这道理不难明白。 但，如果是不同的根呢？ 要煎，不过分吧？ 家里来了一位客人。 VIP般的待遇。 可遇不可求呀。 虽知我可是个贱人，VIP？难。 Hello.. been days yea? Today, i'm going to have a serious talk about twisting words. <-I do not know how to describe it. Wooo, it's about indirect message to the direct person i guess. I've realized many many people love/like/always/usually sending indirect message to the one dak zui/hurt them. It's no good. I am so worrying about the time thingie. Am suppose to go London later but no i'm not, what? O, why. Ok, financial problems. LOL. 女主角收到蓝玫瑰。 我曾收过蓝玫瑰。 今晚，一如往常。 我想念你。 我好想念你。 有没有想过我? 会不会心疼我? 是否很多话对我说？ 我有..我有。  Beauty.. It's The Kiss I'm missing tonight. 生命力可以来自不同的地方。 可以来自一首歌，一把声音，一个人等等。 曾几何时， 某个我曾爱过的人..好有生命力。 这种感觉，我忘了。 我真的忘了。 直到现在， 生命力， 好像不知从哪方回到我身边。 想呀想..终于，我知道是什么让我有这种感觉。 让我好想好想真的好想好好的活下去， 让我好想活得很精彩。 是人。 是一些很重要的人。
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