I don't really like to make a long post but my heart urged me to do so today. A long post does not mean I am going to tell you my full life or what i just had for breakfast, it's going to be a simple self-explaination post that requires bit of your time to read if it does not bother you too much. My life is.. contradictious. I actually think everyone's life is unlike mine because i have this visual handicapped disease that makes me hardly see further way and even the next second. Perhaps, i've been trapping in my round round for too long. I know it is time to come out and see the real real reality world. HEY, I completely understand all of the reality shits just that i never liked to be part of it. "Escape" has the strange kiddie magic that similar to drugs (I guess). It automatically calms you downnnn.. gives you the feeling that the problems finally leave you alone. However, it is not the right way to live normally. It will somehow attack the inside of you, weaken and soften you.

Let me make myself clear.

I want to destroy my round round.