Gonna make a long post again.

Shall i start with the second biggest issue in life which everyone called it friendship (What a lame introduction)? I was once an extremely complex minded girl around 19 or 18 year-old due to the way i acted or survived. It is not okay to mengcomplicatedkan life matters because you yourself will be the only suffered animal at the end of the day. I admit i had such suffocating experiences these few years ending up very sicked of myself. I am very stubborn in.. No. This is not the way. If things are out of my imagination i hardly accept the consequences if you get what i mean. Of course i know my limitation is always longer/larger/bigger than most of my friends but it just that..No. Maybe i have high expectation. It is time to lower myself o when i work in real life i might as well bend myself down to some bossy idiots. Poor me. Okay i'm a bit behind the friendship topic. So, I guess i have to gain back my faith before i lose my best buddies. Um, there ae reasons causing me losing confidence. Haih, see.. I seriously do not know what to say. I do not know. I do not know.